How to Change

If you know me very well, you know that I have lost people that I love. It has been 20 years since my little sister Jamie died and today makes it 13 years since one of my best friends Shanny died. Death is always one of the things that is brought up as a cause for weight gain, and not being able to get it off. But even if I think that is a cause... how do I fix it? I can't bring them back. I feel like I have accepted their gone, so what do I do? It is so hard to get in the mind set of working out and eating right. I can do it for a while, but a little detour and I am right back where I started. So low self esteem mixed with losing loved ones equals over weight. So I ask again... if this is my problem. How do I fix it?

Back at it...

Okay, Okay... leave me alone! So I got pretty sick. It lasted for about 2 months, I would try to get on the treadmill and would just start hacking. Talk about a DE-motivator. So then I got back into the routine of not working out. Here we go again... I haven't weighed myself because I don't dare, I am sure that I have gained most, if not all of it back. I did get on the treadmill last night and I am going to try and get back into a routine. But I am headed out of town tomorrow after work, so don't look for an update on Friday. Good Luck to me again...